Absolutely gutted

After a long year going to and fro to St Georges for various assessments with the intention of having a Gastric Bypass op to help me lose weight - I have today had funding turned down by Merton & Sutton PCT. Not much more to say than the title of this post. I can't stop crying and really don't know what to do for the best. I know I have to fight this decision, but at the moment I don't think I have the strength. I won't give up - because that's the kind of person I am - but the wind has been taken out of my sails for today. Really wish the gym had a punch bag - cos i'd be straight down there after work to give it a damn good beating!